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A Case of the Weekends

Everyone hates Monday. That horrible fiend that steals away the joy of the weekend. Monday introduces a new week of work and stress and sometimes people who are tough to handle. Monday, however, is my best day! I am refreshed after a day of fellowship and encouragement with church family and rest with my honey. I feel ready to tackle a new week with new challenges. Waking up early, I get ready, make breakfast for my family, and am loading the cars with hubby as he heads off to work and I with the littles head off to the mall for our 3 to 4 mile walk.

Tuesday is a mildly slowed, it takes an extra snooze to get out of bed, but as soon as we are, I am ready to go. Wednesday can be a little tougher, but then I remember: hubby is off tomorrow! So, that is something to look forward to. Thursday, I wake up and have the opportunity to go on my walk by myself while daddy takes the day with the girls to give me a small mommy break. After my workout, I get to go to Starbucks or somewhere to refuel, catch up on some reading and/or enjoy running some errands. Friday, I'm ready again after a refreshing day out.

Then it's Saturday. I guess you could say this is my Monday. We are able to stay in bed an hour later, but then PJ has to be at work from 9am-6pm. He leaves around 8 and does not return until almost or just after 7! The mental stress that I allow myself to go through, thinking of being here for 11 hours, by myself, with 2 babies, as an extrovert and a food addict... Well, I'm beside myself.

What should I do?

It is now 3 in the afternoon. Both babies are currently napping, but the youngest has been unpredictable lately with no end in sight that she will be able to thrive sleeping through the night or even through consistent nap times. The oldest took almost 45 minutes to go to sleep, but I am not sure she will rest well after a late night and a mild rash. I am still tracking, so that is good, but if it isn't the biggest temptation to just sit on the couch watching movies and eating an entire sleeve of Oreos with a tall glass of milk!

Instead, I'm here. I came to write out my struggle and give myself the permission to choose: I can sit on the couch with a sleeve of cookies, playing phone games and watching tv shows/movies until the girls wake up and interrupt my binge. OR I can stand up, turn off the tv, and push aside my "woe-is-me" mentality long enough to do a workout and read something worthwhile; which will change my mindset once the girls do wake.

Never mind. I think I just answered my own question...

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